Last week, in one post, containing only 35 words I managed to offend both Christians and Non-Christians alike. Quite an accomplishment, if I may say so myself. But it did get me thinking.
I haven’t always been a ‘Christian.’
When I was angrier, an atheist.
But one thing I HAVE always been is a ‘seeker’.
I am willing to challenge my own thoughts as well as the thoughts of others.
I am able to hold an idea in one hand while weighing out its seemingly opposite idea in my other hand. This gives me the strength and knowledge to choose.
I believe this makes me stronger.
I believe that I can learn from everyone and everything around me.
But I also struggle.
I struggle because I do not want to offend. Strangely, when I was an ‘atheist’ or ‘agnostic’ I was fine with offending; would seek to offend.
I am tempted to ‘hide’ my faith at times. When I ask myself, ‘why?’ the answer is not fear of attack. It is fear of offending.
I was offended BY Christians when I was not a Christian.
If there was a person that I wanted information from who happened to be a ‘Christian’, I would ‘hold my nose’ and try to avoid all that ‘stuff’ while trying to gather what information I did want from them.
And now, here I stand on the other side of the fence.
Remembering when I was offended. Fearing now to offend.
And my wise husband put the choice into words.
“It’s simple,” he said. “Is it just going to be a business or do you want them to know you?”
And I already knew the answer before he asked the question. I just didn’t have the words for it.
To be known.
So hold your nose if you must. Or avoid me completely. But one thing that is true, if you are seeking to know me. Here I am. All of me.